Sometimes I question my own motives. I often wonder if the way I’m living is the right way.
Over the last few years I’ve been reaching higher and higher. I reach for the next level in my career. I plan a trip to a new continent. I launch a blog.
It’s always more, more, more.
And with each advance I want to feel that I’m one step closer to the life I want. The ideal life.
It’s what I talk about on this blog. You’ll see a blurb about it at the bottom of this post.
Personal development. Self help.
But I’ve been thinking recently that I may have it wrong – that my thoughts may be misguided.
I’ve realized that fundamentally nothing changes at each level. I am still the same person and I still face problems.
My insecurities and challenges never go away. They’re still with me when I go to sleep and they’re still with me when I wake up.
So now I sit here and I wonder why this is. If this is not the way then what is? If I am wrong, then why?
I have an idea. I’m not sure if I’m right but I have an idea.
I think now that my problems are a direct result of this insatiable hunger. I think this perpetual craving for more is what has created this suffering.
The more I see in this world the more I want.
I want to travel to Prague. I want to start a company. I want to live in New York City.
All along my focus has been to accelerate my own growth and create a better life for myself. And while I have in many ways, I haven’t solved my problems. I haven’t found sustainable happiness.
I believe this is because I’m always focused on ME.
I talk about PERSONAL development.
I talk about SELF help.
It’s this excessive focus on self that has allowed my insecurities to linger and my problems to persist.
So now I wonder, how can I fix it? How can I change my approach?
I have to believe that if focusing inwardly is the root of my problem, then looking outward will be the solution.
What if I stop dwelling on my own development and start focusing solely on the development of others? What if I fight my own ego by spending my time bettering the world around me instead of myself?
I think there’s something to this.
With this approach I can simultaneously help those around me while relieving my own suffering.
I want to dedicate my life to other people.
I want to serve this world.
I want to make YOU my new focus.
I think this is what I’ll do.
I write this post so you can see my thoughts and my mistakes. I am still paving my own path.
I don’t have all the answers. I’m still searching.
But I hope that my questions can help you with your own situation, you’re own challenges.
And I hope that my own introspection will encourage you to do the same.
How can you live a happier life? How can you relieve your suffering?
I believe we can get there together.